overwhelmed

So its been a while.  A long month or so of prepping Baby A for daycare, prepping me for back to work and trying to hold up the shattered remains of my family life.
Baby A started daycare part time and so far is doing ok, except not sleeping.  I still cry every day when i drop her off, but she for the most part is good.  This week will be hard as i am putting her in for 4 days.  heartbreaking :( .
My family have been pretty sucky.  Didn't call to wish me luck about Baby A's daycare, even when i had been sobbing on the phone with my mum the week before. Just in general being shitty people.  My sister is still for all intents and purposes not speaking to me.  Still haven't figured out how i have "wronged" her, but i am sure i did something horribly wrong in her eyes. Husband is losing his mind and slowly dragging me down with him.  he doesn't understand how hard all of this is for me to deal with. Friends seem to be getting sick of my constant negativity (and i don't blame them).  Every time i talk to them now it is about something shitty going on in my life.  Have been trying to figure out a part time back to work option but that doesn't seem to be working out either.  Which might be a blessing as hubby will likely be taking a mental health sabbatical, so we really need my money.  Not that i don't need my own mental health sabbatical!  I am clearly not strong enough to do everything for everyone!!
And i have ended my therapy sessions.  Not great timing, but with going back to work there won't be time to do it.
I feel like i am losing it and my eye twitch is making a comeback.
So why did i call this blog wittymum again?  I swear i used to be witty and i will be one day in the future, just too much to deal with right now.