where have I been?

Wow. So much to say.  First of all it has been like a year and a half since I last wrote, and my last post was about a miscarriage, that wasn't. Turned out I was pregnant all along and now have a lovely 8 month old girl.  V gets along wonderfully with A and life keeps chugging along.

I feel incredibly fortunate to have my 2 little girls in my life, although having kids has almost cost me my marriage.  

My husband is being good now, but man when #2 arrived things were horrible.  Like almost packed my bags and took off with the girls in the middle of the night horrible.  He treated me and them like shit and didn't see it.

But the last few months have been good.  I am home for a few more months then back to work, which i think will be better this time.  I was so devastated to go back to work after having A, but she did amazing in daycare and showed me that it is OK, she is OK, we are OK.

These kids have already taught me so much.  I just hope I can return the favour.